Que cliche "ups and downs , highs and lows blah blah blah"
This truly has been my toughest year.
I thought 2010 was hard . Newly married moved away from family, poor struggling students working 2 retail jobs to pay rent.
Then 2012 finding out I had ovarian cancer having my ovary removed and dealing with the drs and the permanent thought in my head that I was going to leave my new born baby motherless.
Once again moving somewhere I knew no one , my husband was gone a lot for work Then 8 months later getting pregnant with Jaron 2013 I started bleeding early on in that pregnancy. I thought I was having a miscarriage for months I would bleed and I would freak out I was loosing my baby. but he decided to stick around. Only to have my water break at 28 weeks spend 2 weeks on bed rest and have an emergency c section at 30 weeks while having a 15 month old at home . Then spending 5 weeks in the NICU and going to nurse him every 3 hours,
2014 brought post partum depression and anxiety attacks, weight gain and times I wouldn't leave my house for weeks except to go to church on Sunday or stop at the gas station a block away for milk because the amount of people at Walmart would make my anxiety unbearable.
2015 we tried to have a baby..All year... I knew my body could do this. No one took me seriously. It was so frustrating and you would think trying for a baby would be a good thing for your marriage, but it was indeed not. I would get so sad each month when the test was negative, and especially after I miscarried early on. It stressed Blake out there was no spontaneity, it was such a touchy subject , and you wouldn't believe the amount of times people would ask when we were going to try for a 3rd and it would take all of had to not burst out in tears or rip their face off 😂
My dr finally listened to me and suspected I may have secondary infertility. I was referred to the fertility clinic in Calgary, a month before my app we found out I was pregnant with Addie. Still not sure how that happened as I was in magrath for the whole month before 😂 and we had stopped "trying" lol!
Then 2016 rolled around and I feel like the past 6 years have been a breeze in comparison. Haha!
Nearly dying having a baby, moving,being homeless , husband working and living away from home, finding out you gave your baby an inherited medical condition that will limit her in so many ways, your mom finding out she has breast cancer, stress related ezxema that causes my skin to crack and bleed on my face as well as my hands I could hardly do anything with them. Having a child who has to be fed 3 hours around the clock, washing bottles and measuring formula, sleeping in 2 hour intervals, blood draws, dr visits and hospital stays.
The stress this past year has aged me. Funny thing my resolution has always been to lose weight. (Whose isn't)
I do however recommended a much healthier way of losing 25 pounds 😫
Bring on 2017! If I survived this past year things can only get better yes?
