courtesy of KD Wolsey, you rock girl!

I'm so pumped we got our family pictures back - they turned out super great!! i can't wait to print them off and hang them on my walls! :)

Thanks KD!! :)

5 months old!!

My baby is 5 months old today.. thats a month away from being a half year old.. oh dear!
well i thought this deserved a blog post because i really want to keep a journal of what he was like and now that he's past the newborn "eat poop sleep repeat" stage its getting so much fun!

at 5 months my little boy is

-rolling over from tummy to back.. he can get up on his side while he is on his back but hasn't quite gotten over to his tummy. 

- unfortunetly has found his thumb- i've been trying really hard for him not to suck on it but he sure likes it!

-he sits forward and is in a high chair.. can't quite sit up on his own as he is still kinda wobbly.
-giggles and smiles all the time

-thinks peek-a-boo is the greatest

-loves the pool not a fan of cold water at the water park but is getting used to it(even went down the water slide with dad) loves to splash!

-loves to be outside sometimes i just open the door and put him in his seat and he just watches the cars go by.
-sleeps 10+ hours at night in his crib! naps 3-4 times a day usually an hour/hour and a half each
-eating rice cereal and lately has been using his safe feeder to eat bananas which he loves cause he can do it on his own. he also likes to chew on celery.

-has been one 1 bike ride but his helmet is still a little big resulting in his head being pushed forward=not very comfy for him but he fell asleep nonetheless!
-loves to bounce in his jolly jumper and in your arms as well.
- a month later and still no tooth; just a little white spot still hasn't poked through
- looks up at me and smiles about 50 times a feeding; (almost saying thanks mamma!) but its so cute i can't be mad but he's covered by the time he is done
- loves his swing at home but really enjoyed the one at the park as well!!

Ryker James is so much fun! I love him so much and he is sooo smart! i can't believe how fast he is growing up.

the last 3 months...

so I may or may not have forgotten i even had a blog- what a terrible time to do such a thing as now is the time I need to be writing down things Ryker does. Like the first time he rolled over or his first official giggle. My little boy is sooo active! he loves bath time and to splash ! he always has something to say- especially when it is quiet during a prayer he feels he needs to fill in the silence. not cool. haha He can almost sit up on his own and he loves loves loves his jolly jumper my mom got him. he could bounce in that thing all day if it didn't give him a serious wedgie! We have gone to Canmore to spend a week together as a family. we moved in Medicine Hat ( which we are TOTALLY loving!) we went to the zoo where Ryker loved watching the penguins. I had 2 kidney stone attacks.. which i never want to experience EVER again !Blake graduated and got a new job and the best thing thats happened in the last 3 months is that I'm cancer free! It was so relieving to get that news... i have had so much health issues lately..i am not a fan! My mom came to visit and we went to Cypress Hills, which was so fun! we went on an adventure and out to some look outs which is totally not something my mom and me are prone to do, so it was fun to do something new. We are loving all the parks that are here in Medicine Hat and we live super close to the church and are able to walk each sunday. We love it here and love going out and doing things together- Ryker loves the outdoors. Now i won't bore you much more; here are some pictures!! :)

squealing at the penguins

one of our hikes in canmore

the water was so blue and pretty!

rykers cool shades

happiest baby i know :)

Blake graduated - unfortunately i wasn't able to be there as i was getting emergency surgery for kidney stones

we set up rykers crib! taking a nap for the first time!

sitting in his stroller the big boy way for the first time; he loves to see whats going on!

Ryker started to roll over - this is his cousin Slader showing him how its done

grandma Rhonda bought him a jolly jumper- he loves it and wants to show off all the time!

i made baked spaghetti inside home made bread.. AWESOME!

gross i know.. but my hair started to fall out.. that is a weeks worth of hair out of my brush.. eek! 

post partum hair loss is just terrible!

so our "awesome" landlord decided he needed to store a couple of boxes in the garage so we aren't allowed to use it.. so here in blake using my kitchen as a shop..atleast he's building me stools so i can't complain!

The end.

picture update!

i FINALLY did it! i dyed it! i loved the color.. it last till i washed it and now its a combination of red and brown... my roots are growing in.. they look grey.. i should probably get on that...

We went to Waterton! i love my cute little family!

we went swimming; Blakes parents stayed at the deerfoot inn so we took Ryker for the first time.. he loved it so much he fell asleep so he's not in the picture.

Ryker will smile if you make a fishy face at him.. especially first thing in the morning or if he's looking in a mirror

he's wearing his "grandpas sidekick" onsie.. oh the trouble those 2 are going to get in...

 My boys :)

we took a trip down to Idaho.. 10 hours in the car and this little boy did SOOOO good!! he slept the whole time! :)

Me and my baby :) i love putting big boy clothes on him ; he looks like a little man!!

he is the best funny face maker:) he makes me smile!

where has my little newborn gone!? he is going to be such a ladies man i mean look at those eyes!!!:)

Cancer Update

At the end of March I went to the hospital for a CAT scan to check my lymph nodes and other ovary. i brought my mom along to hang out with Ryker while i was in the scan which was a good thing because i ended up having to drink some contrast thing for an hour and a half before the scan actually happened and it was nice to have someone to talk to as talking to Ryker is somewhat one sided ( he is becoming quite the little talker though! if only i knew what he was saying!) anyways I drink this clear liquid that looks like water but definetley did not taste like water.. i may have spilt a whole cup on the floor i'm such a klutz!) then i go into the scan room where they poke me some more and i get an IV and put on a table and fed through a donut like contraption, when they injected me with the contrast my whole body got really warm and it felt like i had peed my pants i was so embarrassed but good news it was a false alarm! haha so we went back to the Tom Baker center a week later and when they brought me into the room the nurse says to me " so you are here to sign your consent?" and i freaked out! consent for what?! i was here for results! what are you talking about?! i asked her while trying not to panic.. she just looked at me and says well .. i don't know; lets wait to talk to your doctor. I hadn't been nervous about the whole cancer thing until that moment. Everything had been so positive and i had felt so calm like everything was going to be okay. When the my doctor came in the first thing she said was everything looked great on the scan PHEW! instant relief rushed over me and i was sooo glad! they did find a slightly enlarged node in my chest but nothing to worry about so i go for another PET(a scan to look at my cell division) and CAT scan (to compare to the last one) at the end of May just to make sure nothing is coming back! i'm pretty excited that everything is okay and i can put this whole cancer thing behind me. Now i can concentrate on being a mom ( my new favorite thing to do these days:P) Going through this experience has brought me closer to my Heavenly Father; just like trials are supposed to do. I love my little family and am so excited to be healthy again!!I am so blessed and i thank you for all of your prayers, they were definetley felt!

17...

17... the number of days since the Dr. diagnosed me with ovarian cancer...
stats say that 1 in 4 people get some type of cancer in their life time.. I never thought i would be that 1.


I have had very mixed feelings about my diagnosis. I feel healthy; not like someone who had a solid 2 pound cancerous tumor removed from their ovary just a month ago, but at the same time I feel worried that I wont be able to have more kids. Symptoms of ovarian cancer are bloating, pelvic pain, difficulty eating and frequent urination (might i add i was pregnant at the time?!? ) but I am thankful the Dr's caught it at such an early stage.


The type of Tumor was a germ cell which basically means something went wrong with one of the eggs inside my ovary and it grew into a tumor. Today was my first Dr app at the Tom Baker Cancer Center here in Calgary ( maybe there was a reason we came to Calgary?) It went rather well and my new Dr ( I've had so many lately I really can't keep track) is super nice and genuinely interested in making sure I understand everything. My mom and Blake were able to take the day of school in order to be there for me and for Ryker while they did an exam.


The Dr explained that when they examined my tumor it all seemed to be in tact which is a good as there were no signs of leakage in any of my other organs. There is a 15 % chance that the cancer is in my other ovary as well in which the Dr was very clear they would first consult the fertility specialist to see what would be best for me having more kids in the future which i am very grateful for!


They took blood samples and I'm going in for a CT scan to see if there are any other tumors. Once i receive the results from the tumor markers in the blood and the scan i go back in to discuss what the next step will be weather it be chemo , surgery to look at my lymph nodes or radiation but we will cross that bridge when we come to it. It also could be just check ups meaning the cancer was removed, which i am hoping for.

At this time in my life i take comfort in the gospel. I take comfort in the fact my husband is a worthy  priesthood holder and comfort in the blessings he has been able to give me.
I am thankful for Ryker and the miracle baby he is if i wasn't pregnant getting ultrasounds who knows how long it would have been until Dr's caught it.
I am so thankful for my parents and in laws and their support through  all of this.
i love my little family and my faith in Heavenly Fathers plan for me and my family has grown alot in the past 17 days.